wasting time

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yikes!!!

dear lord! the winters here and its not very pretty. it rained yesterday and the sky is grey today and it got to 0 celsius last nite. oh and they havent turned the heat on yet. a rather quaint holdover from communism is the central heat thing. and when i say central i mean that it is turned on by some people very far away who control the heat for an entire area. i was soooo cold last nite --> that Nirvana cover of "where did you sleep last nite"- where the sun dont ever shine, i was shiverin' the whole night through. actually, woke up nice and toasty. so difficult to go to work this morning.

plus this has forced me to commit the totally evil sin of socks with sandals. Gasp! i know, i know. but they are sporty sandals? they are an almost shoe (okay i am trying to give justifications now). the holes are very small. but i couldnt face walking outside without somethign covering the toesies. the were the only thing i had that matched my outfit. but i dont know which is worse, non matching shoes or socks with sandals. hmmm . . .

i am going boot shopping today. i just thought i had more time. plus i kinda dont know what to look for in a winter boot.

weird person on the tram

y'all i am the weird person on the tram or anyother public transport (think this is pretty much in any country). i sometimes forget this and am reminded. today i was listening to irene cara's what a feeling - flashdance. yes from the classic 80s movie that was robbed of the 30 oscars it deserved. i was thinking that i would love to be belting this song out now. there is just something about it (okay every other song) that makes me want to sing. sadly i would sound absolutely horrid cause i ain't got that kind of vocal range (or any at all). but then i that thought reminded me of playing kareoke with the nieces (zana, lena, and anna) this summer. was totally fun and i sounded . . em. . really good! this brought a big ole smile on my face. people were wondering what i was laughing at. but was a nice happy memory.

went to kendo tonite and i spent 1 1/2 hours learning how to step properly. practice practice practice. i just want to get to the beating people up part. sigh. i know its supposed to be all zen and stuff but really the purpose is to beat up people. this is what attracted me in the first place. one of the other girls told me that she did that for 3 weeks. dear lord! i know i am supposed to learn something like patience or some other freaking virtue that i lack, but i think that maybe overkill. but then again the sensei could seriously put some hurt on me so i will do as he says for now. but watchout! in about 30 years when i have some skills i will turn the tables. assuming of course that i can handle the 3 weeks of slide glide, slide glide, slide glide . . .

montage - the way to go

just watched another thrilling episode of csi:miami. and i have to say the whole solve a crime in one day so we dont have to have wardrobe changes is getting a little to much. i mean i understand the need to cut back and save money and all but really!

scientific procedures that take five minutes. they must learn to give up the illusion of time passing. they must take the advice offered here - which looks at the various uses of montage in many great 80s movies. though i was under 10 when these movies came out, i was incredibly discerning and still they fooled me every time. i always believed in our heros ability to overcome insurmountable odds to win. plus its pretty darn funny.

elephant crackup

i just read this article about an elephant problem worldwide. seems that elephants around the world are cracking up and going on rampages. its like they know they are doomed and are going out with a bang. "if i'm gonna die, i'm gonna take as many of you with me as i can!"

its quite sad actually. basically the breakdown of elephant society mirrors what happens in our own disenfranchised neighborhoods. in addition to other stuff - this one flummoxed me - raping and killing rhinos.

we are probably the worse thing that has ever appeared on the planet. kinda wonder when will the earth rise in mutiny and get rid of us. with that said gotta go exercise my rights as a member of a capitalist consumer society and go buy more stuff.

scary indeed.

i just saw the david hasselhoff video for his new song on one of my favorite sites www.stereogum.com and was very very scared. am amazed that this dude still releases records. oh and its high on the charts in the u.k.

consisted on him begging a girl young enough to be his daughter to get in his car, when she finally does - he decides not to take her home and tells her to get out. dear lord! i think that this is a sign of the apocalypse

on the other hand here are some scary awesome archery skills. i want to shoot like this so i can go and hunt cabbage. you know gotta keep the family fed during the nuclear winter.

tofu . . . oh bliss!

i know this may seem sad but one of the things that i really like about this country is the tofu. i looooooovvvveee tofu. i know many cant understand it but the stuff is just freaking awesome. plus the soybean is like a little miracle cause you can make ever so much stuff from it. they treat tofu like cheese - the cheese aisle is where its found. and it comes in flavors that are added while its being made. just like cheese!! so you can get it with dill and peppers. imagine pepper jack cheese but tofu! not that stuff that has been sitting in some flavored water that you hope manages to find its way into the gi block of tofu. bliss i tell you, bliss.

more on food - you can make personalized m and m's here - like with your own messages. pretty cool huh?

am going to a school/corporation dinner today. the things i do for free food. well it is a five star hotel so it best be good. and yay oh yay. holiday next friday. nine days of hanging and traveling. my friend june is coming for a visit.

cool beans

sands through the hourglass

so apparently i am 28. i had a birthday. i dont feel 28 and this gets me thinking "am i really 28?" how do i know for sure that i am. all i know is what 'they' have told me. how do i know when i real birthday is? i mean i remember a certain number of years, but it certainly isn't 28. al i have for proof is that yellowing piece of paper known far and wide as a 'birth certificate' that could have been forged yesterday. all you need is a little tea and some official looking stamps.

what if i am part of some huge experiment - like seeing if people will believe and act the age you tell them? what if i'm really 5 and they've done this weird thing with the space time continuum thing for nefarious purposes? what if i've discovered the truth and they terminate the experiment? what if i'm really a clone with implanted memories? what if you're not real and neither am i? what if they discover that i've discovered what is really going on and they conspire to silence me?

all i know is that i don't feel as old as i am told that i am or how i thought i would feel when i thought about being this old when i was younger.

lines, lines, everywhere are lines

went to the carrafour today - the french walmart. dear lord was that a nightmare! i knew that it would be crowded but it was like christmas eve at walmart except with out the xmas eve part. the lines were like the length of the entire aisles. i mean from the register to the end of an aisle. and these are standard walmart aisles.

am getting aggressive with the staring now. when people are looking at me i just look them in the eye and embarass them for staring at me. today i was walking down the street and this kid about 3 years old ran after to me to get a closer look. was weird. since it was a kid its okay. but sometimes i feel like a zoogical exhibit. this is an incredibly homogenous society so anyone different totally stands out.

happy happy, fight fight, happy happy, fight fight

fighting is joyous - no? just kidding. am a bit happy cause i have found some violent art to participate it. i wend to a kendo (japanese fencing) class last nite. was pretty darn cool. i will go for a bit and see how it goes. i may not continue as the full fencing equipment is quite expensive. i also went to archery. oh Joy!!! - ish

kinda lost its luster when i was there. have to shoot indoors then the instrutor told me that i shoot like a hunter. i felt like shooting him! 1. dude i dont kill animals 2. he could me a little kinder as he was shredding me. i then shot 5/6 golds. but then again i got way way crap as i moved away from the target. at 25 meters i was about to kill people. i actually couldnt see. could be the indoors doesnt agree with me. plus its so late - i got home after 11p.m. i was falling asleep on the subway. all that swaying is like being rocked to sleep. but sleeping on the train is probably not good for my health.

things i miss about the uae - archery is a winter sport where you enjoy the perfect weather of the outdoors. and you dont have mean instructors.

the horror, the torture

I am back at work. Dear Lord!!!! the torture, the horror of going back. i woke up at 3.30 today and could not get out of bed til 7. of course i was reading a book which didnt help any.

cant say that i am overjoyed to be working right now. i think that i needed a couple more weeks off.

sorry to those of you who dont get time off but its like if you dont have time off then you dont know what youre missing. right?

gluttony karma

i have been an entourage glutton and am being paid back. as an hbo show it has half the length of a regular season. i have basically seen everything. now will have to wait and download piecemeal which sucks. i dont like the slow and steady satisfaction of a regular season but prefer binging. everything is better as a binge.

plus how will i occupy myself when am on my misanthropic binge. i spent TWO days in constant company of my friend while we were traveling and i now need to people decompress.

oh well. i may soon descend into madnass.

Lazy is as lazy does

I know that there was a promise of pics and all but i've managed to do nothing contructive.

Since am sharing an apt, i feel the need to enjoy my space when i can. she talks to me and stuff when she is home. you must know how i pretty much dont like people unless i initiate contact. so roommate was gone and i and my computer bonded. very little sleep but lots of downloading.

thank god for a fast connection. i seen the season premiers of such greats as greys anatomy all of the csi's. have to say csi miami was faintly disappointing. and whats up with their sense of time. i mean they fly to brazil and back in like a day. i mean still broad daylight out. then they still have time to solve the crime. the flight to rio takes like 8 hours. this is really disturbing me.

i had noticed it before on other episodes but it was really glaring with this one. i think they dont want to spend money on the clothes for all the characters that would be necessary if they followed a time frame more in keeping with actual crime solving.

whats up with all of these minor characters becoming CSIs. its annoying.

have watched many episodes of entourage. love it. freaking hbo is awesome.

laters